Back to December

Taylor Swift is known for bashing her exes via country-pop hits, and everyone always seems to know which ex she is addressing every time a track is released.

"Back to December" is her only known apology ballad, a shout out to Taylor Lautner if you will. Swift, like most girls, never illudes to the possibility that her relationship ended because of her own actions. We don't believe the breakup was our fault, and it's easy to be the victim.

However, this song stirs emotions for me, and while the situation is more or less victimless, letting go of love still hurts.

I guess the heartache makes you realize the good stuff about a relationship while you try to justify the reasons it ended. At the end of the day, you are basically punishing yourself for allowing your heart to love someone. We shouldn't hate ourselves because we know how to love.

"And I think about Summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger's side, and realized I loved you in the fall"

Realizing that you love someone is intimidating, especially when you aren't 100% sure about how they feel about you.

But as Mistress Swift says "Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming," that's what love is: Action taken on wishful thoughts and mindless dreams.

I wonder though, what happens in her alternate reality when she goes back to December and does one thing different? Does she keep the guy? Does he eventually break up with her? Did he know he loved her when she walked away the first time? Or, like her, did he only realize it after she left?

I don't know. But I would go back to February and do something different, or even to three weeks ago and walk away on my terms. In Swift's fairytale we can always go back, unfortunately, it still remains a fairytale regardless of whether it worked out or not. Which is why we "go back to December all the time."